Monday, June 28, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Would someone do a little research here?
Silly Milly has been pretty sick for the last couple of weeks... struggled with a cough and cold, a runny nose, the works...
Then on Sunday she had a fever that peaked all the way to 103.5... extremely high for a tiny little baby so we took her to this hospital where as soon as they checked her vitals they got her right in. The first Dr. gave her some sort of medicine and applied some weirdo thing to her to take a urine sample...
then the main Dr. came in and was like "I have no idea why he gave her that, why he did it that way, or why he put this thing on her for the urine sample, instead he should do this..."
then they ran a bunch of dumb tests including a catheter thing and came back and said that she had a UTI...
they gave her all this medicine and said to rotate between them blah blah blah and to see the pediatrician within three days...
so today we see the pediatrician and shes like "WHY DID THEY PERSCRIBE THAT!!!??!?" and "Why did they say she has a UTI she doesn't have a UTI..." and then started listing off things that it might be, but she is really not sure on any of it.
Are they just retarded or do they just not care? The way I see it is if you can't even care enough to carefully diagnose a tiny little innocent baby before you start pumping all sorts of medicines and anti biotics into her, then maybe you are in the wrong profession. Maybe. I could be wrong. I just figure maybe people should talk about things if they aren't sure... maybe make a phone call or two?
Maybe not send home kids without any answer whatsoever and on yet another medicine when you don't even know what the problem is?
And thank you very much but we don't want to give Emilly all of those dumb shots.
J-Cub
Then on Sunday she had a fever that peaked all the way to 103.5... extremely high for a tiny little baby so we took her to this hospital where as soon as they checked her vitals they got her right in. The first Dr. gave her some sort of medicine and applied some weirdo thing to her to take a urine sample...
then the main Dr. came in and was like "I have no idea why he gave her that, why he did it that way, or why he put this thing on her for the urine sample, instead he should do this..."
then they ran a bunch of dumb tests including a catheter thing and came back and said that she had a UTI...
they gave her all this medicine and said to rotate between them blah blah blah and to see the pediatrician within three days...
so today we see the pediatrician and shes like "WHY DID THEY PERSCRIBE THAT!!!??!?" and "Why did they say she has a UTI she doesn't have a UTI..." and then started listing off things that it might be, but she is really not sure on any of it.
Are they just retarded or do they just not care? The way I see it is if you can't even care enough to carefully diagnose a tiny little innocent baby before you start pumping all sorts of medicines and anti biotics into her, then maybe you are in the wrong profession. Maybe. I could be wrong. I just figure maybe people should talk about things if they aren't sure... maybe make a phone call or two?
Maybe not send home kids without any answer whatsoever and on yet another medicine when you don't even know what the problem is?
And thank you very much but we don't want to give Emilly all of those dumb shots.
J-Cub
Monday, February 15, 2010
House in Order
Thus far in 2010 I have not jumped on here, I have no posted anything. I have really not thought to much up it or even kept up much on any of the blogs I usually follow..... not because there has been nothing to say, but because real life has consumed me... and I realized something about life that everyone knows in the back of their head, but I know very few people who are actually letting their lives be shaped by the possibilities rather than the circumstances.
In Donald Millers book "A Million Miles in a Thousand Years" he tells a story of how he was in Boston at a coffee shop trying to enjoy his morning, but there was a couple in the coffee shop who had a crying baby, and that took his attention. He said for the first time, the crying did not annoy him because as he saw the couple respond to their child, he realized that while they were living life, a real true story, he spent his days in fantasies and day dreams. That young couple had lived more life then he could even imagine....... He probably built scenes in the back of his mind of moments that they have shared, he probably saw the sold sign on the house they just bought, he probably saw a wedding scene, a limo driving away with just married on it, he probably saw the grandparents and friends gathering at the hospital when that baby was born.
I won't give away anything else about this book that isn't on the back cover, but its the story of Donald Miller realizing that he was not living a story worth telling, and the steps he took to change that. It really made me take a few steps back and look at my life, at what is important. At what in the end will actually be worth anything, and it made me realize that I absolutely need to start investing more into my family, as well as learn to experience everything that God has for me and has surrounded my life with.
I have a lot of dreams and probably even more plans. I want to line up my life with Gods will for me and I want to reach as many people as I possibly can... I want to live the love of Christ in every step of my life, and I want to live in a mode of constant creativity that develops new ways to reach people... but i don't want to just talk about it all anymore.
A goal Dawnee and I have for this year is just that, live in creativity and through it communicate the love of Christ that covers all scars... more importantly than discussion, more importantly then postings and jobs and music and all of the things that are not bad at all, just not as important. And when I do one of these things, whether it be a post, or a song, an illiustrated sermon or a resource of some kind or book a tour to promote a record... may it not be about getting music out or getting my opinion out, but rather getting Love out, spreading love and if we are raising awareness for anything, let it be that we all should love people more and embrace the things that God has already given us... Step out and trust enough to know that you are here for a reason and risk a little for a shot at maybe just maybe changing the world.
I have big big plans for 2010... so much so that I have remained silent on here completely until now about them... it is going to start with my family. With getting my house in order.... with taking care of my wife and my kid, with covering them in prayer, with dreaming big for them... with living a better story as a family.
and from there, I am going to diligently seek the face of God in my own life and in my projects, and for my dreams. The new record is going to come out this year... I pray that God give us the right people to get behind it and shut the doors that are not going to be of any good for anyone. I believe that it has the power to change the world, but not if I can't first focus and realize that without the hand of God of everything I do, I am just wasting days and days of my life away... I believe that all things in our hearts can come to pass, but we have to take care of what God has ever given us if we ever expect more. We need to take all that God has blessed us with and live the best possible story with what we have, and let the rest unfold as His masterpiece, because the greatest story teller of all time wants to write a better story for all our lives, and we are the only ones stopping him.
J-Cub
In Donald Millers book "A Million Miles in a Thousand Years" he tells a story of how he was in Boston at a coffee shop trying to enjoy his morning, but there was a couple in the coffee shop who had a crying baby, and that took his attention. He said for the first time, the crying did not annoy him because as he saw the couple respond to their child, he realized that while they were living life, a real true story, he spent his days in fantasies and day dreams. That young couple had lived more life then he could even imagine....... He probably built scenes in the back of his mind of moments that they have shared, he probably saw the sold sign on the house they just bought, he probably saw a wedding scene, a limo driving away with just married on it, he probably saw the grandparents and friends gathering at the hospital when that baby was born.
I won't give away anything else about this book that isn't on the back cover, but its the story of Donald Miller realizing that he was not living a story worth telling, and the steps he took to change that. It really made me take a few steps back and look at my life, at what is important. At what in the end will actually be worth anything, and it made me realize that I absolutely need to start investing more into my family, as well as learn to experience everything that God has for me and has surrounded my life with.
I have a lot of dreams and probably even more plans. I want to line up my life with Gods will for me and I want to reach as many people as I possibly can... I want to live the love of Christ in every step of my life, and I want to live in a mode of constant creativity that develops new ways to reach people... but i don't want to just talk about it all anymore.
A goal Dawnee and I have for this year is just that, live in creativity and through it communicate the love of Christ that covers all scars... more importantly than discussion, more importantly then postings and jobs and music and all of the things that are not bad at all, just not as important. And when I do one of these things, whether it be a post, or a song, an illiustrated sermon or a resource of some kind or book a tour to promote a record... may it not be about getting music out or getting my opinion out, but rather getting Love out, spreading love and if we are raising awareness for anything, let it be that we all should love people more and embrace the things that God has already given us... Step out and trust enough to know that you are here for a reason and risk a little for a shot at maybe just maybe changing the world.
I have big big plans for 2010... so much so that I have remained silent on here completely until now about them... it is going to start with my family. With getting my house in order.... with taking care of my wife and my kid, with covering them in prayer, with dreaming big for them... with living a better story as a family.
and from there, I am going to diligently seek the face of God in my own life and in my projects, and for my dreams. The new record is going to come out this year... I pray that God give us the right people to get behind it and shut the doors that are not going to be of any good for anyone. I believe that it has the power to change the world, but not if I can't first focus and realize that without the hand of God of everything I do, I am just wasting days and days of my life away... I believe that all things in our hearts can come to pass, but we have to take care of what God has ever given us if we ever expect more. We need to take all that God has blessed us with and live the best possible story with what we have, and let the rest unfold as His masterpiece, because the greatest story teller of all time wants to write a better story for all our lives, and we are the only ones stopping him.
J-Cub
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
peanut buTter ballz
We are so pumped to see the Jones family... Thanksgiving is when I miss home the most because Christmas I always go home... But they are the closest thing to family out here, they are amazing, and we will share our peanut butter balls with them anyday!
J-Cub
Write More
My heart has been heavy recently on these issues.
I have found it difficult in the last few months of my life to really break away from the day to day routine to study and write... I have tried to set up my days to allow for some of these types of things on a daily basis, but my environment that surrounds me (not meant to be an excuse) has made it more than a challenge to focus not only on writing down or turning to song the things that are in my heart, but even to discover what is in my heart anymore. I am not talking about the fundamentals, I am not talking about the things that I love and the things that I know without a doubt, but rather the little things that at the end of the day help you realize who you are beyond the mass of people who all believe the same things as you do, live in the same town as you do, or have the same friends that do.
I don't care to argue opinions or scenarios. I don't care to stay up on politics or stand and hold a sign for something that I want to see changed... I just care about loving God, loving my family, loving people, enjoying life with people, and learning about myself as I move along through life... and everything I learn I need to write. So when looking at this blog, you would probably think I haven't learned much lately, but when you are able to hear our new record, you will hear that I have learned a lot... and behind every expression of the truths I have found is a hope that my voice will be enough to change the world... but I must be more. I must study more, I must break away more, and as much often as I learn I should teach... I should be mentoring as often as I am being mentored... but when I look back at the last few months, I have not done either.
Its a saying among Christians that everyone needs a Paul, and everyone needs a Timothy... a person who pours into you and a person you can pour into... well I am on a quest for both of these, and I am looking to spend more and more time writing... from blogs to journals to music... to let every change in my heart breed change in others, to be a light that spreads love, peace, and understanding... I want to draw closer to God, and in doing so lead others into a deeper, closer and more fruitful relationship with God... and the only way I know how to do that, is to take the things that I believe, write them down, and start to share.
J-Cub
Thursday, November 5, 2009
My Wife, work, pictures, etc.
My wonderful wife Dawn has inspired me yet again to strive for new heights both creatively and spiritually... Adding on some of our own money to the money my parents gave us for Christmas early this year... we bought a new camera we are really excited about... already in one day taken more pictures then we have the whole rest of the year so far...
we are starting to wake up earlier again, and try and have coffee or breakfast out somewhere as often as possible, to clear our minds and toss around ideas before the actual workday starts. Dawn is one of the most creative people I know, and she has an incredible eye behind a camera which I must say I lack in still, but growing in... and I am stoked about the projects we are going to put together in the near future both for work and for the band. How cool to be able to wake up, and spend your days tossing around creative ideas with your wife and your friends, picking out the best ones and putting them to action. How many people have jobs like that?
its an amazing job, it allows me to live in creativity and grow in my dreams... but I really want to lock into my potential and give it all that I have. I am very excited about a bright future that I hope is absolutely filled with creativity and God inspired ideas that help to change the world and present truth to it in a way so unique, yet so fitting to our generation... we should have a voice that nobody can ignore, and in doing so live love in every facet of what we do, because that is what will change peoples lives...
J-Cub
we are starting to wake up earlier again, and try and have coffee or breakfast out somewhere as often as possible, to clear our minds and toss around ideas before the actual workday starts. Dawn is one of the most creative people I know, and she has an incredible eye behind a camera which I must say I lack in still, but growing in... and I am stoked about the projects we are going to put together in the near future both for work and for the band. How cool to be able to wake up, and spend your days tossing around creative ideas with your wife and your friends, picking out the best ones and putting them to action. How many people have jobs like that?
its an amazing job, it allows me to live in creativity and grow in my dreams... but I really want to lock into my potential and give it all that I have. I am very excited about a bright future that I hope is absolutely filled with creativity and God inspired ideas that help to change the world and present truth to it in a way so unique, yet so fitting to our generation... we should have a voice that nobody can ignore, and in doing so live love in every facet of what we do, because that is what will change peoples lives...
J-Cub
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Here's to an Ocean I can't even see
Sometimes I get crazy discouraged that in rapid and heart filled pursuit of my dreams I have reached a standstill... Like so many times you get so close to something yet you don't quite get to it... But then there are days like today, where you realize that even though you can't see the ocean from the shore, its still there, and its absolutely within reach even if its not within sight... There to serve as a reminder to you that no matter how dark the day may seem, its still beautiful,
and hope will always overcome a seemingly discouraging reality.. Because you can do anything if you never give up. You can alter your reality.
I really believe, with all of my heart that the next few months of my life are going to be very defining in my life, so please pray for me as I, with my family and close friends, seek to love God more, reach more people for him, and reach an ocean of dreams not even close to site in reality, but in my heart I am already there.
J-Cub
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